summer holidays over


I Start back work on Monday - to what I don't know. It's usually piled up waiting for me when I get back.Lets NOT think about that today.

Bought some new sunglasses yesterday, kind of big ones. Not "Nicole Ritchie" big, but kind of 70's big. Only cheapies.... I don't buy expensive sunnies anymore, you know why - blah blah - the amount of times I sit on them, drop them, ride rollerblades over them ... well... enuf said.
I dated this guy one time who bought me a really expensive pair of RAYBANs... I mean, over $200 and that's five years ago. I wore them for a year or two, but found them 'heavy' on my head. They honestly weren't that comfortable, though the lenses were excellent. Eventually the shape of them looked dated to me, so I threw them in the glovebox and let them die there, until one day I could never find them again. So much for that!
If I had of paid that kind of money for them myself , I may have felt a little cheated. But of course they were a gift.
Since then I've only spent $20 on sunglassess and they last usually a year or so. I don't have any qualms about that.
And nowadays, I dont think I'd accept a gift like that off some guy I'd only known a few weeks. This guy also bought me a microwave oven, a video player, and clothing etc.... again, nowadays I wouldn't accept all that 'stuff'... but I was new to the dating scene back then,.. and just because he had money I figured it was no big deal. However it is a big deal, especially when you break up. No matter all the things he bought me.. he also brought me pain, grief, heartache and many tears and sleepless nights. I'd rather none of it.

I've only been really 'hurt' by him and maybe one other guy in my life. (Excluding my ex-husb) however, having my heart broken, its only happened twice. The sunglasses guy, played me like a fool and being so new to dating and so niave ( after my marriage breakup) I got strung along in confusion before it finally dawned on me, that this guy was a lying heartless moron whom I blindly trusted. Forget the presents!
The other guy was only a year or two ago. I got roped into dating him - by that I mean - he took weeks/months trying to get me into a relationship .... when I did, I started to fall for him, and as soon as I did - he dumped me. I didnt see that one coming.

However, I know I've broken up with guys myself and probably hurt their feelings. A couple spring to mind.... but I also gave them fair warning that I wasnt commmitted.
This last guy, put so much effort into winning me over.. that I was duped into thinking he really was so serious about me. My jaw hit the ground when he gave me this 'I wanna break up with you' card. Two days previously he'd given me an outline of how he wanted our relationship to progress, and how he was SO into seeing where it was going.... blah blah. Anyway.. needless to say, I got over it quickly , but it certainly left a wee scar. Same with Mr sunglassess, no matter it was over five years ago, when I think of him, I feel really pissed at how he messed with me. But I guess nobody can go thru life unscathed by love... I've had I suppose, my fair share, but.. and this is the key, its not ongoing.. I don't keep making mistakes. I make them once and learn from them.

Meanwhile, I'm happy to coast along as a single woman for now. Especially in this year of newly freed from responsibility. There is so much to do! Life is pulling me along by the ear right now, no matter how much I want to sit and wait some more... and just savour my time off over the summer break. I can see the days ahead looming for me to spring into action and make the most of this year... in confidence.
so the sunnies are really apt!